Maybe – half•alive

Feel the weight, fill the space in the void of my own time.
I’m surrounded in pain passed down through my bloodline.
I have tried to escape from the maze but it’s no use.
These chains never break, never budge, never come loose.


Story’s over,
Story’s over.


Standing still and it feels like I’m lost in a coal mine.
Inside, realize I’m at war in my own mind.
It’s a place fear creates, I’ll be here for a long time.
And you don’t know where I’ve been, you weren’t there on the front lines.
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Just Exist – Eliza and the Delusionals

You were in my head last night.
Was I on your mind?
Was I on your mind?
Why else would have you been there,
In one thought at a time,
One thought at a time?

If I could hold my breath around you,
It could make it easier.
If I could just exist without you,
It could make it easier
If I knew my way around you,
It could make it easier.
If I could just exist without you,
I would just exist,
Just exist.

You were in my dream last night,
Creeping in again
When I least expect.
Is this what 22 feels like?
Do you feel alive,
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No Cavities and Other Small Victories

The following is going to be a rambling stream of consciousness, and I accepted that before even beginning to write. So here goes.

A couple days ago, I was heading to the dentist. For the first time ever, I was actually looking forward to it — a chance to leave work, get out of the office, feel the air outside. My optimism about the visit quickly dissipated once I arrived. As I started filling out forms that I had sworn I had filled out online days prior, I gritted my teeth (a bad response in this context) and prepared myself for the inevitable. read more

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