3 years. That’s how long I should actually expect my business to take to find its groove. And here I am, beating myself up when it’s been 4 months.

I’ve been in a weird state for the past month or so, at times thriving, other times concerned for my health. For the most part, it’s been fun sprinkled with some moments of deep self-doubt and insecurity. The past week was especially high energy, since it was my birthday as well as one of my best friend’s, Casey’s. It felt like I was constantly socializing or eating something unhealthy, to the point where I actually did feel my social battery draining. I like being around people—people I’m close with—so this week didn’t seem like much of a drain. But internally, I knew I needed to be alone with my thoughts. read more

I remember a distinct moment in my junior year of college. I was in my apartment, chatting with my roommate, Ines. We were trying to make a plan to hang out, because despite living together, we barely saw each other each day.

“What about lunch tomorrow?” she asked.

“Can’t. I’ve got a drum lesson at 12:30.”

“Well, what about dinner Thursday night?”

“I’ve got newspaper editing all afternoon and evening.”

“Friday afternoon?” read more